"Be ye transformed by the renewing of your minds...take on his mind. Cerebral faith will never get it. Maher is a blasphemer. Remember that word? His has an unredeemed mind and heart, and the carnal mind can't possibly comprehend the things of God. This man has nothing to teach you. You may or may not have a great deal to give him, but an unrepentant heart can't receive...dead end. You have exalted yourself against the knowledge of God, my friend, and I question whether the fruits of your life are those of a repentant sinner, and redeemed believer...you're an elitist, in my opinion. One of the things I've noticed about people of little or no real faith, is how much they talk about their faith in tangental terms, rather than about their 'Lord', or their 'Blessed savior' for the simple fact that He usually isn't, at that point in their lives. Please re-think your positions, for your own sake, and ask the Holy Spirit to break your hardened heart, and remold you into a fit vessel for His kingdom."
As you can see, both its tone and content are toxic, though well-intended. Attacked by another fundamentalist. Just terrific.
Some would say that I ignore this man's rantings. Simply delete his message and don't think about it again. Others would say to logically rip him a new one. Refute his claims. Show the factual inaccuracies of his comments, the weaknesses of his reasoning, and the ad hominem logical fallacies he employed. Then present a superior alternative. Frankly, I cannot do either. The later would be easy and the former would be satisfying, but I see neither approach as having much long-term value. The problem is, this man is sincere. Seriously. He sincerely thinks he's defending the Body of Christ and helping me by writing these things. He probably thinks of himself as a truth-teller. So this gets back to the question I'd been wrestling with for a few months now: How do you help fundamentalists see that there is another way to live out their faith?
I am caught in an ongoing battle with myself. All at once, I possess the spirit of a reformer and a tender heart. I feel compelled to stand for that which is true, just, and good. I attempt to exercise discernment in how I live that out, but I cannot turn off or minimize that impulse. It goes to the innermost being--the essence--of who I am. I am no longer exhilarated by ideological warfare. I no longer enjoy the fight as I once did. Christ has transformed my desires. My heart is compassionate, warm, and loving. I possess the ability to shut off my emotions to meet short-term needs, but I cannot shut them out for long as I used to. What's that cliche, like water off a duck's back? I used to jump into these great ideological struggles, feeling that I was waging a culture war for God's truth in a society that was quickly running falling apart. I would take shots and give 'em, but I never let any of it bother me because sometimes there's just casualties in war. I can't do it anymore. I no longer possess the ability to let things roll off me like nothing.
A couple months ago I told a relatively new mentor that I don't enjoy being embroiled in controversy. He kind of laughed and with a smirk said, "Mmmm hmmm, riiiiiight." What he didn't understand is that I don't seek controversy for controversy's sake. I by no means shy away from controversy, but I don't seek it for the purpose of being controversial. What all this means tangibly is that I'm constantly standing up to someone or something because I possess this iron will, but I leave every encounter beaten and bloodied. I stand up to these people because no one else will, regardless of the pain and the wounds that it has caused me. It's the curse of being a compassionate reformer. I think it is for that reason that I cannot get past this question regarding fundamentalists.
Jerry Falwell used to describe a fundamentalist as "an evangelical who is angry about something." In his book Understanding Fundamentalism and Evangelicalism, George Marsden provides this more scholarly definition:
An American fundamentalist is an evangelical who is militant in opposition to liberal theology in the churches or to change in cultural values and mores, such as those associated with 'secular humanism'... Fundamentalists are a subtype of evangelicals and militancy is crucial in their outlook. Fundamentalists are not just religious conservatives, they are conservatives who are willing to take a stand and fight.
Therein lies the trouble. If you try to build relationship with them, you an an insidious agent of the Evil One out to undermine God's work and truth. If you take a stand against them, their passions become all the more inflamed by this innate martyr/persecution complex. If you try to avoid them, you are a coward who operates in the shadows for fear of God's wrath. If you try to partner with them, they refuse on the grounds that you have compromised the truth. If you try to reason with them using the Bible (special revelation), you are a cold, elitist academic with a hardened heart who is trying to get past the simple, plain teachings of Scripture using man's thoughts instead of God's thoughts--fanciful arguments used to get around the Lord's will. (They believe all truth must come directly from the Bible, for the Bible is not only the authoritative Word of God but the exhaustive Word of God.) If you try to reason with them from natural revelation, they said that you cannot possibly see the truth because of the scales over your eyes. You've not been enlightened and cannot see the higher things of God. If you try to expose them to new ideas and perspectives by having them peacefully engage with Christians of different traditions or even non-Christians, you don't understand the spiritual war that is raging around us. It is truly a bleak situation. Fundamentalism is this perfect combination of insular community, self-righteousness, and self-assuredness rooted in their belief that God wills their actions. Against that, what can possibly be done?
As I was turning this problem over again and again, I pondered a great deal about my own life growing up within a fundamentalist ecclesiastical context and how I behaved back when I was a fundamentalist. (Note: My parents are really way more conservative evangelical than they are fundamentalists, but the churches we attended were definitely guided by (moderately) fundamentalist leadership. And that's definitely the model I patterned myself after in my early years as a Christian.) For all the studying of done of Church history and theology, I wondered why I never picked up on the fact that I had been raised within a fundamentalist context. I only became aware of it when my buddy, Swany, was down last year for the "American Evangelicalism Conference." He made this passing comment about my "fundamentalist background." I stopped him immediately and said, "My what??" He thought I'd not heard him, so he repeated it. I must have been giving him a really funny look because he said, "You do realize you grew up a fundamentalist, right?" It was a shocking revelation, but I knew it was true. Trying to figure out why I hadn't seen it messed with my head until I came to this important realization just a month or so ago: You can't identify a fundamentalist until you disagree with them.
Maybe that is obvious to everyone else, but it wasn't to me. I love the terms "emic" and "etic" from the field of cultural anthropology. An emic perspective is an insider's perspective and an "etic" perspective is an outsider's perspective. Quite often it takes an etic perspective to see the flaw or error in one's own culture or perspective. For the longest time, I had been a conservative's conservative, so the fundamentalists at my churches loved me! They encouraged my zeal, prayed over me that I'd be a "culture warrior," and told me that God had given them prophet words that I was to lead a great many people away from the incursion of the liberal attacks of the Evil One. (I'm not kidding... And by the way, there's nothing like a prophetic pat on the back to boost your ego and encourage your pride.) Needless to say, it wasn't till I a few years later when I started questioning them that they started getting pissed off at me. Until then, I thought these people were the nicest, most cordial folks in the world; they weren't angry fundamentalists! It took six years for me to realize that even fundamentalists--nay, especially fundamentalists--are nice, respectful, cordial, and encouraging so long as you agree with everything they're angry about. But as soon you you cross 'em... Well, that's when you can you spot angry, militant spirit of a true fundamentalist.
This realization doesn't help do anything to try and help disarm the situation, but I do think it was an important step for me personally. I'd been trying to figure out why the heck I was suddenly come under this barrage of attacks the past couple years when I knew in my heart that I'd been sincere in my efforts to resolve my doubts, find peace in the Holy Spirit, worship God with my mind, and work out my faith with fear and trembling. It made no sense. Why would Christians assail me for these things? The answer all of a sudden became so clear. It's because these are not mere Christians. These are fundamentalists. They're like Urak-hai to mere Orcs. When I raised questions that made them uncomfortable and challenged their beliefs, opinions, and perspectives, I was revealing their true nature.
Yet the question remains, how does one deal with christian Urak-hai? As I've already said, you can't build relationship with them, stand against them, avoid them, partner with them, or reason with them using the Bible or general logic, or try to expose them to new ideas. What does that leave?! That's the question that has been plaguing my thoughts all these months.
Quite ironically, I think I found the answer today when Mr. Langenberg said he "question[s] whether the fruits of [my] life are those of a repentant sinner, and redeemed believer" and when he called me an elitist. That's it. Brilliant! I think he might have unlocked the very door I've been trying to find, for his question and mine are completely compatible if you take a larger look at this thing. If you take Mr. Langenberg as speaking for the general spirit of fundamentalism, he is not only questioning whether I have born fruit, but if people like me (i.e. historic neo-evangelicals that broke from fundamentalism) have born the fruits that would come from being repentant sinners and redeemed believers. And if that is shown to him, maybe--just maybe--he'll reconsider not only the way he lives out his faith, but also the way people like I do. Let us hope and pray.
OK. So to go a little Wonder Years on ya, I need a little help from my friends. I'd like to ask my friends, family members, peers, mentors, those who've I've mentored, and people who've simply stumbled across my writings to please weigh in. If God has used me to help you in any of the following ways, or if you've seen any of the following that speak to the working of the Spirit in your or my life, please comment and say so:
- Recommitted your life to Christ.
- Brought much-needed guidance to you in your (early?) spiritual life.
- Brought reconciliation and healing to the the divided Body of Christ.
- Challenged you to experience and seek the biblically-intended full christian experience of worshiping God with all your heart, mind, soul, and strength.
- Used my writings to help you deepen your faith and conquer some doubts.
- Exhibited grace, charity, or love at a time when other Christians weren't.
- Healed some personal wound you were carrying, perhaps inflicted by the Church?
- Stood up for what is right--speaking the truth in love--when other Christians were not.
- Helped the less fortunate by giving of my time or money.
- Led people to a deeper knowledge of Scripture by conversations, Bible studies, etc.
- Seen me grow and mature in ways that can only be explained as sanctification through the work of the Holy Spirit.
- Seen me demand that the Church be serious about maintaining its commitment to historic, orthodox doctrine.
- Etc.
Oh, by the way, I have a suspicion that Duane may try to write you off as a bunch of liberal kooks. So if you consider yourself conservative, please include that in any comments you might make.
Thank you, my friends. I cannot tell you how much I love you and appreciate your support.